Returning at Last

Hey guys! It's been a while since I've blogged here (or anywhere) and I'm pretty glad to be back. OF course, this doesn't mean I'll be constantly and continuously updating. My schedule simply won't allow it. A lot's been going on lately and it leaves me with hardly any time to myself.

   For one, hopefully in 2016 I should be starting film school WHILE still going to my normal high school. Crazy right? I'm going to be a film director or whatever there interests me most. I'm nervous and excited but I have my friends and family  supporting me all the way! On the note of filming, I've been creating a lot more short films lately--mainly with friends. It's something I really enjoy doing and can see myself being successful in.

   Also this month, December of 2015, is my birth month and from the day this post is being written there are ten more days until I'm officially 16. The day after my birthday I have Winter Guard practice so I think there'll be a small celebration with the other guard girls (and guy). It's also the last full week of school before my winter break--meaning the last full week before my gaming and movie marathon! First, gotta survive these finals!

   On a darker note, I've been slowly falling back into my depression I tried so hard to escape for good. For a while, it went away and stayed away. Now it's back and I have moments in time where it all seems so hopeless and pointless. Other moments, I'm smiling and laughing as if my thoughts and feelings aren't eating me alive. I'll go back and forth maybe a few times a day. Music helps greatly though and so does ignoring everyone around me. It's just tough lately and I constantly feel trapped in my environments.

  In the field of love and relationships, the luck is NOT on my side. Honestly, it's to the point I'm really just done feeling things for people. I've been hurt, used, rejected, and full on avoided. Some people can't figure out just what exactly they want or expect from me. Well, know what? If you dont know for sure you want me, don't chase me. Don't let me believe there's hope, because in the end it's not what you actually wanted and now it's too late anyways.

   That's all I can really think of to say right now. It's just a small update in the world of Mkitty.

Question of the Post:

What do you want most for Christmas/what's your holiday wish?

Rant #1: Humans

One thing you will hear come out of my mouth constantly is, "I hate humans." And it's true! They aggravate me to no end. People commonly don't get what I mean when I say "Humans" and give some stupid response like "you're human too" or "that's right, I'm human." SLOW YOUR ROLL there buddy! I get we're all human and such but this is how I classify people:

Humans: 

1: The people I CANNOT stand! They're stupid, rediculous, annoying, aggravating, and the choices they make make me want to hit them in the face with a chair. (Example: annoying kid in my  Contest Speech class)

2. One who I don't know well or at all. 

3. A way to address a group of humans, people, and non-humans combined. 

People: In between the human and the Non-human, people are okay. Sometimes I love them, other times I would like to slap them.  (Example: my debate partner who is making her way to the Human category) 

Non-humans: I LOVE THESE PEOPLE! They are my kind of people and I rarely get mad at them! (Example: my best friend Kelsey)

 Just because you're classified as one thing doesn't mean you can't switch. As you can tell by the example for "People", based on your actions and behaviors you can move up or down. But once you're on the bad definition of Humans, like my debate partner is slowly slipping into, it's REALLY hard to get out of. Mostly because I will be mad at you every time I see you. Your mere presence will aggravate me. 

Now I'll explain definition 3 of Humans. Sometimes I'll go up to a group of friends and say, "Hello Humans." But that doesn't mean I don't like them or that they're strangers.  It could be a group of humans, non-humans, and people. When I see a group of Humans, I stay the heck away. When I see a group of People I just may say, "Hello, my people." When I see a group of Non-Humans, I have options such as "Hey", "My kind!", "Non-Humans! Hellooooo" or just flat out, "Hug me."

Why are they classified as "Humans" rather than some other name? Because you hear things like "The human race caused (blah blah bad stuff)" and bad guys in movies say "I will enslave the entire human race!" Even more WHOS been making stupid mistakes for years and years now? HUMANS!!! 

And that's what these people do! Make stupid decisions, do stupid things, cause serious problems via stupid things. They don't do this thing called THINKING! Making pointless arguments without the facts when they don't even know what the thing they argue is!

Example: 

One day, in a debate round....

Human 1: This will overall increase the country's GDP. I'm now open for questioning.

Me: *Stands for questioning* Do you know what GDP is?

Human 1: yes. 

Me: what is it?

Human 1: Ummmmmm *1 minute pause* I can't think of it right now. 

We asked her partner too. 

Us: can you tell us what GDP is?

Human 2: How much money the U.S. makes within a year via trade. 

No. No. Just sit back down. No. 

We corrected them and they felt stupid. YAY! (Thanks to my Geography teacher for teaching me that the day that happened)

Anyway, that sort of thing really makes me mad. If you're gonna talk about something, UNDERSTAND IT FIRST! Walking into a battle with no sword will be the death of you. And your pride. 

 Why did I talk about this today? Because today I have to deal with A LOT of Humans and I am not looking forward to it. I'm already currently surrounded by  them as is. Granted there's one Person here but there's also my debate partner next to me which puts me in a bad enough mood. 

Man I'm hungry. 

Anyway, I'm curious. What do you, few people who actually read this, want to see more of? 

I'm going to be blogging a lot more and all. Eventually there will probably be a schedule but as of right now, updates will be random. I'm also working on books, trailers, and doing photoshop for fun. On top of that, school. So don't be surprised if most rants/posts are short. 

Where Have You Been?!

Well, hello there. So the very, very few people who are reading this could be thinking "holy crap!!! She's alive!" And yes, I am. But I wasn't for a while. Allow me to explain. 

 I never had a life. But one day, BAM! I was hanging with my bae, Kelsey, as much as possible. Ya know, when her boyfriend wasn't in the way. NEXT, I was in North/South Carolina for the summer, I was riding bikes on the beaches and swimming with jellyfish (also being stung by said jellyfish) I had a summer romance too! A very short one. Then I went back home and resumed no life. Then school started back up, and I was released into the wild hallways of High School with my own kind! I joined debate. Why would a shy girl like me join debate? Because the absolute thrill of getting up and performing or giving a speech to complete strangers, and hot male opponents, is my life and stress reliever.  Then I got a boyfriend and those four months went by in a swirl of cuddles, 5 hours at a park, kisses, and tears from those lonely nights when he wouldn't talk. Yeah well, he left me. For a very depressing reason. This lead me to one of the most depressing times in my life. I, Mkat, felt truly dead. 

But then, it hit me again and against my will I was soon won over by a guy in my English class. When I say "against my will" I don't exactly mean it's a bad thing. But hey, I was determined to protect myself from the harmful rays of a guy. So much for that. 

Anyway, I somehow managed to get a downright magical sonofaduck. I could spend forever talking about him but I don't have forever. So let's stick with "holy crap. I'm in love. Michaela don't FLIFF this one up!"  He and I have a lot in common, he won't admit it but he's adorable, he's shy, and he's honest. "Hey, I've been reading your thoughts." Cool, that's for telling me <3  Really, yeah, I love him. He means a lot to me and I'm really lucky to have him. I really don't know how I got that lucky though. 

Other stuff happened too. But I'll make that list below because it's late and I should get sleep....but I can't sleep. 

List of things I forgot to mention: 

1: I cut my hair

2: I seriously considered dying my hair red 

3: I saw my biological dad

4: I turned ~age censoring~!

5: It became 2015

6: I died 2872883 times in 2014

7: I ate pie

8: I rode a wave!!!! 

9: I had many anxiety attacks

10: I thought I was losing my sanity 

11: I sat on Kelsey's roof with her

12: I need to stop. 

Okay guys! This is it for this...yeah! I know it's not much but I do plan to blog more. Mostly rants and stuff but oh well. 

Shoutouts to Kelsey, Jerkface, and Isaac. 

Love you all but Jerkface.  

Book Review- My Paper Heart

   ~*~ My Review on My Paper Heart~*~

This book is written by your normal average girl on the website called WattPad. I, too, use this to write stories as well as read other people's. I have been supporting the author and her book is now being published. So to celebrate, I decided it's time to give it some real attention.

My Paper Heart is a very captivating book that draws in it's readers. "Be careful of those you lose when you choose to love". I quote that line from the book's description. This makes me think for a moment. "What does she mean?" I ask myself. Are you trying to be careful of someone you previously loved but lost? Or was it meant more of "Be careful who you CHOOSE when you choose to love"?  When I look at the tags I see things such as betrayal, cheater, heartbreak, hurt, lies, and love. 
   Having read the book, I see now that love of course comes between two best friends. It's your average teen fiction and romance book. I personally love it and reccomend it to any girl who loves drama and romance.
Rated PG-13
Stars Rating: 5 stars
Over All: Brilliant work and highly enjoying as well as captivating. 21 chapters of excellence. <3

First Post

My First Post. 

I figured that because this is my first post on my first blog, I'd give a little introduction to what I plan this blog to be about. It at times will be about life (and other indoor sports) and I will try to connect to my readers as much as I can. Whether it's about movies, books, tv shows, love, or whatever the fluff is going on. 

    For a second thing, my sister is also starting a blog shortly. I will post a link to her when she gets it set up. And I would like to thank my friend Paul for coming up with the name of this blog. And to my friend Erin for showing me where to start off. Also to my other friends who I know will support me through everything.

  This should be all for now. I'll blog about something soon!